I so hard relate to this. So many blurry moments from the past, that now I cringe at and am glad that my drinking has dulled to drinks only around friends and at a maximum level that leaves me largely sober or at worst, slightly tipsy. Neither of my kids (who are both over 21) really drink, and instead, they have more thoughtful lives than perhaps I did at that age. Or maybe I shouldn't judge my past self, but just acknowledge that it was fun in its own way. I make different choices now for multiple dimensions of health.
I hear you on the cringing, but also agree that it is important to give your former self some grace. Whenever I recount those very drunk times, I also try to remember what was going on in my life at those points that was driving me to drink so much, even if it was happening below the surface. Here's to developing healthier, long term habits!
I so hard relate to this. So many blurry moments from the past, that now I cringe at and am glad that my drinking has dulled to drinks only around friends and at a maximum level that leaves me largely sober or at worst, slightly tipsy. Neither of my kids (who are both over 21) really drink, and instead, they have more thoughtful lives than perhaps I did at that age. Or maybe I shouldn't judge my past self, but just acknowledge that it was fun in its own way. I make different choices now for multiple dimensions of health.
I hear you on the cringing, but also agree that it is important to give your former self some grace. Whenever I recount those very drunk times, I also try to remember what was going on in my life at those points that was driving me to drink so much, even if it was happening below the surface. Here's to developing healthier, long term habits!