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Beautiful, Meghan.

When I reflect on the past year, my biggest take away is how much I've learned about myself. So many of the 'truths' about who I am don't seem to fit anymore. I actually found a 2019 planner and felt a little sick when I saw how busy my life was. As much as this year has been so hard in so many ways, I can't help but be a little bit thankful that it forced me to slow down. I don't know if I ever would have otherwise...

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I feel like there's a Black Mirror episode waiting to be written where we all get to see what our lives would've been like at the end of this year had COVID not happened. I agree, I think we will be better for it, despite the terrible sense of lonse and pain we've endured.

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This is so beautifully written. You always make me cry.

I love the duality you are writing about (in ourselves, in last year, in life). I tried to recollect the memories and feelings last year before all of the changes, and it’s a little too overwhelming for me to comprehend. I guess I’ve just caught myself doing a little of the erasing-drunk-texts from 2020 too.

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I've been erasing-the-drunk-texts for MONTHS, girl. I read someone say an an interview recently that no true literature, TV, etc. about this time will be created until we've had the space to fully proccess it, so I think it makes sense that we've in in erasure more.

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Woof. Deep thoughts. Hard to put into words but you did it so well! This time last year I was already working from home for a week, a little scared but mostly concerned about the money I was going to lose on my kickball league and cancelled flight to Portugal, trying to rebook that trip and change it to a Vermont roadtrip as surely America was fine and other countries were the problem, and receiving about two calls a day from my 'neurotic' mother telling me to buy masks bc things would get bad.

Love what you said about the duality of lightness and darkness - the yin and the yang and that is life

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So funny about the stresses over things like flights, kickball, etc. I had those exact same worries! If only we knew what was coming down the pipe.... LOL

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Thank you so much for this week's piece Meghan! I let myself have a GOOD cry after reading this. I've come to realize how in my own ways, I've been avoiding today's anniversary because I can only imagine what it means for millions of people all over the world. You summarized my feelings more perfectly than I ever could. Thank you again!

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Thank YOU for reading. And I'm glad to hear you had a good cry... it's what the occaison calls for. And damn does it feel good to get it out!

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Loved that Sarah Jaffe piece on work. Also, I truly cannot get over your apartment—the navy walls! The mirrors over the couch!! Looks so, so good.

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Thank you, thank you! I am still in shock every time I open the door. Dreamy!

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